From the bottom of my heart

Hey, so,

A new day, a new start All fucked up by my drunk-ass brother who seems to be hating me, 

Well i'll never know, but the things he said hurt me alot ,actully made me cry ... after being alone for some time i called my dad (AT 2AM IN THE FUCKING MORNING ,WHICH I NEVER DO) ask if i ever was unthankfull or something like that, He said ''No, You've been the best son you can be.'' 

The feeling of father saying that... it made me cry even more, because i felt like i wasn't a fail in the eyes of my father, even thou i know that my father will prolly never see this but,

Thank you dad, For being the best dad i can ever dream about.... thanks! 

I can't ever write , i'm crying like a little girl...

but knowing that my own brother hates me , just... it just hurts so much!!! 

I called mom too. She didnt pick up... but i wanna say that i'm sorry for everything i have ever done to you, IM SORRY! PLEASE FORGIVE ME... Give me this, please! i maybe drunk but im speaking from the bottom of my heart. Im sorry for all the bad things i've ever done or said to you! 

IM SORRY FOR NOT BEING THE BEST SON YOU WANTED MOM!!! I KNOW I LET YOU DOWN! I'M SORRY!!

MOM,DAD, I MISS YOU! 

I TRIED MY BEST, BUT I CAN'T DO IT, IM JUST TO WEAK!

IM SORRY !

Bye!