Hey,
I know its been a while since my last post, but I moved out from home... Well i basicly got thrown out but thats not the point of this post.
this is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wl9y3SIPt7o&feature=player_embedded
I just can't put the hate in words... This video is proof that even the familys that seem ''okey'' have serious problems. Just like my family.
just something i wanna share with you is that on the day i left home my mom yelled at me, saying things like:
''Whats the matter with you? are you retarded?''
''Hit me, i dare you?'' as much as i wanted i didn't because i'm not that kind of a monster...
''Move out!''
''Noone wants you''
''What made you a monster?'' she said i was a good kid and that i have changed. She made a monster She was the one that beat me EVERYDAY ...
''have the games messed with your mind'' The games helped me relax and just helped me get out of the fucked up reality.
and do top it all off ... She said ''I hope you die'' which made me think alot about life even more then usually.
She beat me so bad that i hated going home, got beaten to the hospital , when she was out i didn't sleep ,i was afaid that when she comes she ripped me out of bed and started yelling .
thanks to that fear i sometimes can't sleep well , i have nightmares ... Not just nightmares ... not monsters and trollz and stuff like that i see myself killing people ,and enjoying it ...
... just to much bad memorys that i can't undo or forget nether can i forgive.
thank you mom...
i keep on hating you...
