My memory has been disintegrating.i spent too much time on the other side, now its eating away at my mind...
erasing whats left of it. my memorys are all confused, slowly self-destructing,fading like a dream after you wake up.
im losing my sence of time. I no longer know what happend before or after. everything is playing inside my head the same time.
its like watching the same film looping over and over again.a chaos of images with no order.
so i've been writing nighr and day for weeks.
trying to put my life down of paper.
if i forget everything, these papers will be my memory.
im finally getting what i wanted, i've never been so unhappy in my life. i feel like a part of me has been amputated. i know its stupid... Shit... I miss it SO much. and thats not the only thing i miss.
it took months... months of nothing, passing by. deep down i know, i needed the silence around me, to hear what i was feeling.
