Kill me now

Kill me now
I think I could die here
In your arms
If that's alright dear
'Cause you don't care a bit about me anyhow
No you don't care a bit about me anyhow
So, kill me now

Every note that I play 
Is a dream that I wish would come true
Every word that I write
Is a word that I picked out 
Just for you
But you don't want to hear what I have to say
No you don't want to hear what I have to say
So it doesn't really matter anyway

I wrote you a beautiful song
You said the words were all wrong
You thought I could come up with something more clever
I wrote you a beautiful song
You said the chords didn't belong
And my verses needed some structure
I think it just means..

The world stopped spinning 
In that moment that my eyes first saw your face
The particles of dust 
Stood motionless, frozen
In time and space
I'm waiting for your rook to take my bishop
Just waiting for your rook to take my bishop
'Cause I would gladly surrender, give up
To you

I wrote you a beautiful song
You said the words were all wrong
You thought I could come up with something more clever
I wrote you a beautiful song
You said the chords didn't belong
And my verses needed some structure
I think it just means..

Kill me now
I think I could die here

I wrote you a beautiful song
You said the words were all wrong
You thought I could come up with something more clever
I wrote you a beautiful song
You said the chords didn't belong
And my verses needed some structure

I think it just means you love her
I think it just means
You love her

Why did i even try...

Hey,

Here i am again. depressed as fuck. thinking... about the friends i dont have... The girlfriend that i'll never find, Thinking about the family that i'll never have, And Tannu you don't go under the friends list you are my brother!

     Today, i was thinking, and i figured out that i'll never be more than a soldier, I'm not going to be a father, a husband, a loved one, only thing for me out there is the military.
 Everything is going down, Im just a small bump, a drop in the ocean...

the last 5 days have been like hell for me, a FUCKING nightmare,
Missplaced trust and old friends...

Most nights i hardly sleep, Wishing we might end up together, Nobody (exept Tannu) Really cares how i feel or if everything is okei with me, NO-FUCKING-BODY!?!?! Am i Really that bad of a person?... People say that if they had a boyfriend like me , they'd be extremly happy? THEN WHY THE FUCK IM
SO FUCKING ALONE?!?!

And stop fucking pretenting that you care, i wouldn't be the one contacting you , You wouldn't even care... everything i hear is Fucking stupid,

** Im blowing bubbles, **

**pretty bubbles in the air**

**they fly so high **

**nearly reach the sky**

**then like my dreams**

**they fade and die**

Bye!