No-No topic

Hello,

So, Im drinking my problems away, yet again... im half drunk, but i still feel the dissapointment that my brother is ...
Well today i was out with my brother, we went to a club name ''the second world'' and we stayed there until 3-4 am. My brother is drunk as fuck. at 1am i got tired of clubbing around and left. I told my brother that im leaving,he said ok,but wait for us, we would be for long now, we'll go together'' Yeah RIGHT! in the meanwhile i was outside ,freezing and got in a fight. It went a bit bad but im ok. Finaly when my brother came out he called me, asking where i am. i said ill be there soon. thats when i know my place... We started moving out every 2steps they toke left me a step back, they got to our friends house in 15 minutes... me? it toke me 30 do get there because of my beatup leg. THEY DIDN'T EVEN LOOK BACK?
So now i know: I AM AMONGST THE FORGOTTEN.

At least when i finaly leave this fucked up life noone will remember or feel sorrow because of me.
As sad as it is this is the moment i give up life...

Who will take all the pain away?

everyone has forgotten me , Left me or hates me...

Why should i go on?

Thanks Tannu For Being A Good Friend...My best friend... Every step i take i feel pain just because im alive... the pain and suffering i have brought to all my friends and family... I can feel my family giving up on me... I prolly wouldn't be here if i didnt have you... But i dont have to harm you...I really wanna die but i can't and i don't wanna make you feel that pain...
AARGGHHH THE FUCKING SADNESS IN ME!? THE PAIN!!! THE HATE!!!Too much... I'm seriously on the breaking point...

Thank you Tannu