I finaly found you

... I found you Ann

Don't worrie i wont stalk you or something like that... I'll just follow you and watch you when you sleep...

No..
But srsly nothing lik that, just feel amazing ,about the way you opened up on me. it made me feel really good... thx:D
Have Fun & Good luck
Bye

Pain

Have you come to understand what a little of pain is?
Unless you know the same pain, you cannot truly know another.
And even if you get to know others, there can be no understanding.
That is the truth.
The world will know real pain.
This is the only way that peace can be achived.
And after several decades, that pain too will eventually fade with time.
It will no longer be a deterrent and humanity will begin to battle once more.
in the course of this endless cycle of hatred,Pain will give rise to momentary peace.
That is my dream.

Peace is just within our grasp.
As i said before: Death will lead to peace.

I dont understand, why would someone weak try to restist? Why fight pain, knowing, you'll die.
Out of love, sacrifice is born... hate is born and we are able to know pain.

Do you hate me?

Hate

In order to save something dear...
wars are waged.
As long as there is love,
there will be hate.
and someone will take advantage of that hatred.
This monster known as hate will not die while theres life remaining, it will give birth to pain.
To be a man is to confront hatred.
each and everyone  one of us will battle hatred.
I trust you to find a way to end the hatred.
You must find the answer yourself.
I dont have the answer.
Im not smart,im not a great person.
But i know your find the answer.
I HAVE FAITH IN YOU.
Everything can be rebuilt.
Im counting on you.

The New Start

So, Here we are with the new page.
I'll make a new background and stuff like that, everything will change now.
Stay strong.

Update.

 I will change the URL of my blog if you want to know the URL then contact me : karl.robert.vaarma@khk.ee

Until then Bye

One Blood

In the far away fires 

Where the hills forever burn 

At the feet of our heroes 

We try hard to learn 

But the lesson is lost there 

In the smoke and the mud 

That we are one flesh, one breath, one life, one blood 

I stood by the river 

That ran red with shame 

I stood in the killing fields 

Where death had no name 

I stood with my brothers 

And away it flood 

And we were one flesh, one breath, one life, one blood 

Then I felt to the ground 

Tasted ashes on my tongue 

Thinking that only the dead 

Are forever young

There was peace in the twilight 

And for a moment among 

It was a world without danger 

A world without war 

And I will take all your suffering 

It will do any good 

Cause we are one flesh, one breath, one life, one blood

Tired Off It All.

So, yeah...

Tired of living again, having shitty ideas and lack of happiness.
topics of the past few days, i don't know tired just tired, not planning anything, Just tired, Wanna rest and be with someone but noone wants to be with me, at least it seems like it, feels like it...
So much troubles are fucking things up and Me up.
Last friday i went and gave in my papers for the Estonian Defence Force i think it called in english, Hoping that i get in.
 My escape. My Destiny.

Once more into the fray,
Into the final good fight you'll ever have.
Live or die on this day,
Live or die,
My destiny.

Bye , Talk to you soon.

Words of wisdom

The pain of being alone...is not an easy one to bear..why is it...that I can understand your pain? But...I already have many people who are important to me now...and I can't let you hurt any of them...even if I have to kill you ,If you want to kill me, despise me, hate me, and live in an unsightly way... Run, and cling to life, and then some day, when you have the same eyes as I do, come before me.


People live their lives bound by what they accept as correct and true. That's how they define "reality". But what does it mean to be "correct" or "true"? Merely vague concepts ... their "reality" may all be a mirage. Can we consider them to simply be living in their own world, shaped by their beliefs?


A genius, huh? What does that mean? 'Genius'? So I was not born with a whole lot of natural talent, not gifted like others ... but I work hard and I never give up! That is my gift; that is my way!


There probably isn't any meaning in life. Perhaps you can find something interesting to do while you are alive. Like how you found that flower. Like how I found you.


When a man learns to love, he must bear the risk of hatred.


Those who break the rules and regulations are called filth, but those who don't care about their companions... are even lower than filth.


When people are protecting something truly special to them, they truly can become...as strong as they can be 


There's no advantage to hurrying through life


There's only one thing that can heal the heart... Only one... It's love


There’s no meaning to a flower unless it blooms 

Old things rise up.

Hello,

I got a phonecall today and their looking for me again... Not good, not at all.

This call made me think, I need to change... Change to a better man for Helena and myself, i've noticed that im shitty boyfriend and need to change...

That call made me paranoid, watching out for trouble and people that seem like a threat. I think i saw them, but i can't be sure.

also i went to the cinema, and saw the movie  ´´Safehouse´´ theres some things that got stuck in my mind, things like ''People don't change, people get old.'' and '' I know what you are... I know what you're not... Be better then me.''

also i havent written here in a while again but thing have been rough and complicated. I'll try being better at this... Like I used to be...

Bye, until next time

I AM WHO I AM!

identity crisis!


Exellent!


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