Its time to write a longer post to let you know how it going and what am i doing

Hey,

First of all , Things have changed alot.
I can't remeber if i told you or not, I DON'T live at home anymore, I'm Single... and Its my birthday...
I live in a dorm next to my school. It's hard, getting along and making food and stuff on my own, but its something that i must go through. Atleast I have people I can hope on (Tannu, Mirell,Ako,My brothers, My old class, and the other people im forgetting at the moment). People say that if your childhood if rough then your future will be easier ... YOU BETTER NOT LIE TO ME!

On the topic - My birthday-

-.- All ways the same shiiii.... But Fuck it ... I Should be happy and enjoy myself....
Let's get Drunk!

birthday....

I hate it, I FUCKING HATE IT!

But now we have a serious reason to Drink!

Huuraaa!

GET YOU SHIIIISSSSHHHHHH TOGETHER!

Need to get it together!

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I'm hopefully joining Estonian Defence Force ..

aaa yeah! Finaly my chance to become something..
i hope i get in..

it all depends on the doc's call...

Can't wait..

bye Hon is waiting me

Here We Go Again!

So School is starting yet again...
dammnnnnn The Holidays Went Past Fast...
Thank You Alcohol...

Yup I Drink...

Ouuuu Yeah Happy New Year...

And Yet Again Im In My Dorm And Waiting For Next Year...

aaa yeah...

I have Nothing Else To Say At The Moment...

Soooo Bye?

Fuck the hints...

Yup Fuck the Hints!

I want to give up

I think about suicide regularly. I haven't added much to this world. Anyone who is here can go on without me. I feel the pain of depression every day. I can't feel the happiness I should. I'm tired of medication and trying to find something that works. It comes back so often. The feelings of failure and looking back at mistakes. What can I offer anyone when I'm locked up inside myself. I want to give up. I don't have the ambition anymore.