Forgive me?

For what?
Or Why?
Really?
God?
I'm Bad?
Very?
Enough?

Man?
Energy for life?

The Moment You Want People To Forget You And Just Die...

...


Man, This sucks. Why did i do it? Maybe it's for the best? Will She Forget me? Will I die soon? What will happen to her? How many people would be at my funeral? Will people remeber me as ME? Will the bring flowers to my grave? What if i survive? What will happen to me then? Will I find my heart and My Will to live? What if She has someone else already? What if She never loved me ? What is Love? What if my whole life was a lie? What is the point of life? Should I dissapper? Should I ? What if people dont wanna be with me anymore because what I've done? Why? When will My time come? Why did you lie? Am I That bad of a man? Aren't i good enough for you?

The feeling

She said I don't spend time like I really should
She said she don't know me, anymore
I think she hates me deep down, I know she does
She wants to erase me hmmmmmm

A couple days no talking, I seen my baby
And this what she tells me, she said

I keep on running, keep on running
And nothing works
I can't get away from you, no

I keep on ducking, keep on ducking
And nothing helps
I can't stop missing you, yeah

Are we there Yet?

So...

Here I am Drinking and waiting for a friend... Seems to be like things are getting harder and more complex...
On the other hand who said its easy? life should be Tough. You may ask why... I say that it makes your future easyer but not easy.

Well anyway things are Fff ing hard at the moment:
Problems with my mom and stepdad,
Work,
Not seeing the One I love,
wanted to change who I am...
The list goes on and on

Also its hard to lose contact with the people you know for 9 year and one day you just dont see them anymore as often as you want...


What are your thoughts on when someone wants to change you ?

Sry...

Hey,

Sry i haven't been blogging. i've been really busy and i have a little time also i got a new pc and my new PC doesent remind me to blog...

until then READ IT


I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lyin' here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as I'm fadin' away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

Everybody's screamin'
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slippin' off the edge
I'm hangin' by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
As I'm fadin' away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me?

I've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me? 


also a picture.